Man Plans, and God Laughs
Hello my friends! It’s been quite a while since I’ve invited you here to my little corner of the internet. I haven’t updated my website or posted anything in almost three years… THREE YEARS. That’s really not okay! I don’t have any excuse besides life happened. Actually, a lot of life happened! I traveled, I took pictures, I made new friends, I transferred to UCLA, I lived in an RV for two months… (oh, the stories I’m excited to share).
Somewhere in between all of that, I forgot I had a website. Also, I’m apparently bad at time management, because I’m still reeling over the three years thing. While I’ve done my best to keep my social media up-to-date, I feel like I haven’t really been doing those channels much service either. Anyways, yes! I’m still alive, albeit I had a three-year case of writer’s block. I can’t tell you how many times I started a blog post but just never got around to finishing it.
So, here we are! April 2020… what a bizarre world we are living in right now. With the COVID-19 pandemic, I’ve been spending a ridiculous amount of time inside (which is good! We’re supposed to stay home! Flatten the curve!). But I’m almost a month into quarantine, and it kinda sucks at this point. Wherever you’re reading this post, I hope you’re safe and healthy. Empty shelves, isolation, school/work closures, cancelled plans – we’re all sharing this scary moment in time. There is a lot of uncertainty right now, but just remember, uncertainty is all there ever was. It’s all there ever will be. 🙂
….and yet, I still feel anxious for the future. I fully sobbed myself to sleep when I moved out of my apartment last-minute and realized I wasn’t going to be able to say goodbye to my friends. My graduation at UCLA was postponed indefinitely. I had a plane ticket to Japan for the 2020 Summer Olympics, and it was cancelled. Sometimes the timeline you make for yourself in your head doesn’t go according to plan. This has always been hard for me, as I love having everything planned out (true to my Virgo side). I think 2019-2020 were humbling in the sense that I had my life ~planned out~ to happen in a particular way, and it definitely hasn’t unfolded the way I pictured it. My friend recently shared a Yiddish adage with me: “Man plans and God laughs.” It’s likely there’s a god or goddess somewhere, giggling at me. Despite the fears, right now I’m feeling so grateful and cared for, and I’m giggling alongside the deity. I hope you are too. Life is silly and unpredictable.
PS – I’m so excited to finally get back into the swing of things. It feels good to have a singular place to hold all of my creative musings. I updated my media portfolio, along with a few tabs including travel and photography, two passions of mine! Please click around and leave me feedback. It’s all a work in progress.